ive been working out more the last few days.  trying to eat as little as possible but usually one time everyday i screw up so then i go for a run.  i feel fat. obviously. or else i wouldnt have this blog.  super depressed lately.  my mom screamed at me yesturday for being a low life or something like that.. for like 10 minutes.  screaming.  i just sat there.   and said nothing.  ive been working alot lately.  drinking alot of coffee.  want to start smoking again, but afraid my mom will find out and kick me out or something.