Just deal with it.

1 pm- 1/2 grapefruit- 50 cals
3 pm- 1/2 grapefruit- 50 cals
           Ramen Noodles (made my own sauce, didnt use the packet it comes with)- 200 cals?
           5 Spanish Olives-25 cals.
4 pm- Soy chai tea latte- 200 cals?
5 pm- vegan muffin(purged it, so i dunno if it counts)
So i didnt stick with my plan to eat just a grapefruit and soymilk, oh well.  I went for a reallllly long walk today, and whenever i go for walks it makes me super hungry.  So atleast I burned some cals off. So I'm guessing my cals were anywheres from 500-600 cals today.  Oh and I also drank alot of water and green tea, and had some cigs.  I'm starting to get dreadlocks, I love dreads.   Alot of my friends wouldnt like them though, cause there snotty so I've been trying to hide my hair.  Its fairly easy now cause its only the bottom layer of my hair so I can just put my hair up in a bun, or leave my hair down and wear a scarf around my neck. This morning I weighed myself and I weigh 107.  Not bad I suppose, but not down to where I was this past summer.  (I gained like 10 lbs over the fall, I was 100 lbs) I've been feeling really weird lately, I have depression and anxiety, and I just started taking anti-depressants a few weeks ago, and for the first week I felt really great, but I think they stopped working, I feel I dont know, not right.  Hard to explain.  My dad had bipolar( had, hes dead now) and my sister has it too, so I'm wondering if I have it and maybe thats why they're making me feel this way.  Well next wednesday I'm going to get checked out, I have an appointment to talk to a counceler so maybe she'll know more.  The person that perscribed the meds to me wasnt even a doctor, shes like a nurse practioner or something, the step below a doctor, and she doesnt specialize in psychology, I just told her I was depressed and she perscribed me meds.  So who knows? Whatevs..I'll just deal with it.