fasted the day before yesturday, yesturday i ate about 600 cals?? today fasting again...although i shouldnt say my fasting days are totally fasting cause i still drink coffee with a little vanilla soymilk and splenda.  and im absolutely addicted to rockstar's zero cal pink can energy drink.  i drink theose alot. as well as diet coke especially vanilla coke zero.  party in my mouth. mua ha ha. i love drinking tea too. especially since i just got some cute tea cups.  i feel like im from alice in wonderland when i drink from them.  anyways.
i went to the movies with this guy i know today.  who knows. i think he likes me but not sure if i like him.

starting a lemon and water with honey (if hot) or splenda (if cold) fast.  got the idea from broken scale obsession blog. hopefully i'll be able to do it for atleast three days.  we'll see how much self-control i have... the weather has been soo crappy.  really rainy and dreary for the coming up week :(  fuck maine..oh well. 'tis my life. ehh i want a cigarette.

ive been working out more the last few days.  trying to eat as little as possible but usually one time everyday i screw up so then i go for a run.  i feel fat. obviously. or else i wouldnt have this blog.  super depressed lately.  my mom screamed at me yesturday for being a low life or something like that.. for like 10 minutes.  screaming.  i just sat there.   and said nothing.  ive been working alot lately.  drinking alot of coffee.  want to start smoking again, but afraid my mom will find out and kick me out or something. 

dye it blonde

dyed my hair blonde.  i have to go to the salon tomorrow though to get it toned cause theres some orange undertones that i want to get rid of.  i did it from a box so it figures.  its not bad though.

sorry i havent posted in like forever.  ive been sp preoccupied with my life.  anyways.  i went to florida again to visit seth, and pretty much were broken up.  fuck him. asswhipe.  whatever.  ANYWAYS.  i am 109 lbs.  pretty much have been staying the same weight, i was 107 lbs a few days ago but ive been eating too much the last 2 days.  ill start doing better though starting right now, cause i really want to be 105 by this weekend.  its taking all my power not to start smoking again. arghhh.  ahh i want a fucking boyfriend.  wow that wasnt at all desperate sounding.  ha ha ha. alright see yazz.

3 day fast??

is gonna start fasting starting now!! i just NEED to.  gonna do it as long as i can, which will prob be like 12 hours later knowing what a lazy fucktard i am.  seriously though, im aiming for 3 days.  tomorrows friday, so i guess itll be a weekend thing.  fri, sat, and sun.  then after that only salads and low-cal soup and shit like that.  oh ill still drink water while the fast is on.  and maybe coffee if i really i need it. and herbal tea. but thats it.

*needs to lose weight without over thinking it*

thats my problem right there, i over think it and then end up getting stressed-out and start eating wayy to much.  anyways...i just need to stop being a lazy-ass bum and start working out more.  Seriously. Its redic-u-lous. Infact I'm going to go work out right now, so hollazz.

Oh and thankyou Dani for congratulating me on the new job :)

One more note before I go....Seth (my new boy that i talked about in last post) is AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!